Crying and Drying Those Tears

I walked by the tree where you carved your name today.

I placed my hand on the spot where your tiny little fingers once were.

My eyes filled with tears just wishing you were near.

I rambled down the path that we have used for over thirty years.

The dogs ran ahead as they always do to make sure all was clear.

My eyes finally cleared up when I found a big clay heart.

It reminded me that you will forever remain in mine

Even when I feel all this pain.

I thought about the last time you came by the house

and you asked me about something that I have never told a soul.

I remember the smile you gave me when I gave you the answer.

And then I told you I would always be there for you and Zach.

It was not long afterwards you were gone.

I never will be able to give you what you asked me for,

But I am glad you knew I would if given the chance.

I laid that clay heart by a tree and I realized God had set you free.

I read in Habakkuk this morning about his complaints

And how the Lord answered him in only a way God could.

Just like Habakkuk, I know this life is hard to understand and I will never know God's plan,

But my faith must persevere until the end knowing I will see you again.

Dawn Renee