The Scary Part

Putting parts of your life out there for people to read is scary. I have been anxious since the book went into publication. Yes it is available for preorder on Amazon, and you can buy it now on Barnes and Nobles. If you have preordered it will get to you, whenever Amazon gets their part worked out. So, I ask for the ones who have preordered that you pray they hurry up. I am excited that I have one good review on Amazon, and I have set up an author page as well on there as well. You can follow me if you feel the need. I want to reiterate that I have to take responsibility for my own actions during this time. But I believe everyone should take a look at their own self when it comes to how we treat others. For me, I became very reclusive for the past three years, but it gave me time to heal. I am literally at a standstill of where my journey is headed. All I have asked the last few months is Lord you lead. I fully believe Satan has attacked our family in ways we never saw coming. Losing Kayla was the worst kick in the gut I have ever felt. I relive that night over and over. At first I was angry that we were in Texas, but looking back it was where we were supposed to be. I have prayed for the ones that had to tell us, but thankful they wrapped their arms around me and followed us all the way home. It was the longest ride I have ever felt. We were in total shock. But I do not believe I would had made it through it if I had not had those three years prior getting back in the Word of God. So I ask for your prayers as this book moves forward and for the waves of grief that hit out of nowhere. The reason I covet those prayers is because I do not want to feel like the poem below, which is in the opening of my book.

She Lay down to die:

Surely that was better than staying alive.

She could feel herself sinking into an abyss,

that was ominous and dark.

Slowly she could feel the cold embracing her:

Finally, the pain was leaving as she slipped into unconsciousness .

She was me.

I read today that holy and humble go hand in hand. Then I thought about the other side, pride and prejudice go hand in hand. So, my pray is to try and stay humble, because we all know pride comes before the fall. Let us try and love each other despite our faults.

Dawn Renee